Sparrow

Haven’t seen my parents properly in a few days, yet they’d rather sit there and watch master chef than speak to me. Then they start having a go at me for being on my phone and calling me anti-social. Pot, kettle, black much?

I want to live in Camden.

I feel so lonely and it sucks that the perfect man doesn’t exist. Sorry for the depressing posts.

Feel so shit right now. I’m so tired, my immune system is low, my throat is swollen and my septum piercing is really hurting tonight. Every time I talk I’m in agony. Just want to curl up with cuddles and tea. Sorry for the pity party. Just needed a rant.

People piss me off. I went against my best judgment and put everything I had on the line. I told you about the worst parts of me, I accepted everything you told me about yourself and I stood by you even when many other people would have walked away. I opened up to you and thought “hey this may actually go somewhere” for the first time in over 18 months. And then as usual, you have up on us and walked away. Fuck this shit.

Certain things just send you back into a spiral. I think it just happened for me.

I’m fed up of being two different people. I put on an act of being strong and happy and confident, when really I’m the complete opposite. I feel like I’m about to break.

Work is beginning to stress me out like crazy. Plus the fact I spend more time there, than in my own home is worrying. Then I get him interrupting all of my thoughts. Can’t seem to go one bloody day without thinking of him. Which is stupid because nothing will EVER happen (my own stupid fault, yet again).
Uch I shouldn’t be this stressed, this young.

Fuck.